May 20 - Scary Day

HARSH shape today. Last night Gary was up late enjoying an ice cream sandwich and chatting. This morning, extremely severe rigidity and can't respond at all, and can hardly open his eyes, though we know he's awake. I think he's paying for 2 10-12 hour days of awareness in a row, but his respirations have dropped. Pulse and BP seem to be hanging in. Again, nearly 70 lb. weight loss since November, completely bedridden. Up til 2 days ago, sleeping 20-23 hours a day, then the 2 day surge, and now this, and we're not able to get him to even try to swallow any medication at all today. No medication changes caused this. I am firm on that. He is home with Hospice assistance, with me, our adult daughters and one excellent regular caregiver who we consider part of our family now.Can never tell...so devastated this morning, but he seems stable for the moment. Just never know what to think and the uncertainty is terrifying!